She Did it Again

Posted by on Apr 2, 2012 in Mom Musings, The Boys, The Dogs | 3 Comments

She did it again. Somehow even in passing, Nico saved me again.

Today has come and almost gone without the waves of sadness and guilt I expected to feel and this, once more is all thanks to her. You see; today was my first day back at work. After over two years of pregnancy and nurturing babies I have made the leap back into the workforce and am no longer a ‘stay at home’ mom. Needless to say, I was tortured by the transition. Don’t get me wrong, I was excited to jump back into the rat race (I know that’s crazy but I really was!) but I couldn’t imagine leaving the boys for 8 hours a day. What if they cry non-stop? Don’t nap? Don’t eat? Get a fat lip or a really bad diaper rash? Feel abandoned and are scared for life? The irrational list goes on!

What happened this weekend took the focus completely away from leaving the boys and starting my new job. The truth is, my mind and my heart is full of Nico. I have her here with me in my new Pemberton office. Her photo and her spirit. What could potentially have been the most difficult transition of my life was actually easy compared to Saturday! I know those boys are in good hands with our wonderful nanny and I know I can be home in twenty minutes. They probably don’t even know I’m gone…

Love

KpS

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3 Comments

  1. krissy
    April 2, 2012

    I thought this may be the outcome. Hope you’re having a better day than yesterday :)

    • KpS
      April 2, 2012

      I have a lot more distraction! but it is still very sad. I brought my anti-puffiness eye cream :) I am sure I am goign to start to miss the boys more and more and more as the days go on but this first day my head and heart are still with Nico for sure. Especially since the boys are in such good hands.

  2. Susan
    April 3, 2012

    She was such a great dog! We remember her warm personality. She had a wonderful life with you, Kristina. Sad to think I won’t meet her again in this life. She is definitely up there though!